Well, I feel so gay today.

Because for the first time, I wore something skirt-ish to work. Well, blame it to wearing pants everyday for 5 months already in the same place, so time to wear something a bit ridiculous to a work-should-be-serious-place.

8D

Pulled it off good with a scarf. Good thing the weather cooperated or else, I would've looked like a person from Baguio lost in Makati.

Let's say that's a good thing because my crush asked me to go to Starbucks with him? With my Starbucks money supposed to have gone to his pockets as I owned him money? Well, he was more than willing to give me extensions on the financial aspect, but I insist on paying early. Anyway, I ordered Toffee Nut Latte (no frappes for a long time, I has the cold and cough. COMBO, yey.) and he had Dark Cherry Mocha Frappe which were the flavors on the new menu. SOLO BOARD OF THOSE TWO COFFEE so imagine how giddy I was inside while I played poker-faced. >DDD

I love the coffee, BTW~

Okay, so going home while shopping for fly-papers and batteries for mamoy, I discovered this:

YES, DARK.

The taste ain't so far from the original, but it has that bitter afte rtaste so I love the twist. But I would still be hunting that GREEN TEA KIT-KAT. We are getting fond of teas nowadays anyway, I wonder if they will ever discover that kind exists. D:

Anyway, I hope my work gets better tomorrow. I'm messing up two days in a row. I need to improve!

And bad news because tomorrow will be Sendai Kamotsu's last live. *sniff* I really want to make a tribute for them. I surely will and drag the JUNKOS of course. 8DDD

Shall be finishing this Kagrra, article and off to watch and okray TV shows with mamoy.

おやすみ！

looks like november is starting to be a good month for me.. i hope lady luck would just continue on giving me the luck i need, or at least the luck i've been waiting for the whole month of october..

i did a bad thing this morning. i don't wanna talk about it, all i can say is that i just had to do it.it sucks coz i think i slipped and made a big booboo of things. anyways, if he knows then let him know. lol.

lets start with our story... hmmm.. where to begin.. i went to mari's to get the form to apply at a hospital we plan to work. it was pretty much a normal day. didn't really think lady luck was gonna smile to this poor unlucky soul. lol. i saw the guy in mari's place whom i have been waiting to see for probably more than 3 years now. he's kinda cute but i kinda smelled something fishy. lol. but he's worthy enough to be main course. LOL! i left before 3 coz i was gonna play volleyball again with the kids. i saw this guy whom i liked for quite some time now but i don't really like him that much. anyways, he was on his bike and i pretended not to see him(BTW, we play volleyball every now and then) he went up to me and told me they wanted to play against us. he even asked me to text him when were on our way to the court. and he gave me his number!!! wow. so much fun. lol. i don't plan on doing anything about it but at least i have his number. lol. hmmm... i also know now who the other guy whom i have been eyeing for in the past few months is. haha. yup.. lucky day coz i got to get closer with mah boys. lol!

BTW, me and kaio are ok now. it sucked that people judge coz i'm gay, thinking alot of negative stuff and all that but at least they can see that if they give me a chance, they see that they're always wrong with all that nonsense they label on me.

maybe i shouldn't say it anymore but i'll still do so coz i need to say it out. lol! since i htink th other day, i stopped caring about mc, eien and aaron. i don't know why. i think it started about 3 days ago. i don't know what happened inside of me but i stopped caring alot about them. sure i still want totalk to them. but i don't care much if i ever talk to them either. i just hope it's not temporary coz i feel good right now and i don't want it to end.

so eien added me up on mafia wars. may he ain't all that bad. lol. i still wish he'd talk to me though so i could at least know why he's like that. i can't expect us to be friends again after all this. though i am kind of hoping. just hope that we could at least be able to talk. not just the one way communication that has been going on for more than a year now. wow. can he hold a grudge. i don't hold grudges coz i get even. lol. good thing i try to control myself or he would really be in for alot of trouble.

i was playing volleyball again and i might have been wrong coz i saw someone that kind of looked like aaron but it wasn't him. i tried to avoid him but i was just outsmarted by fate and i'm thankful coz at least i know it wasn't him the other day. hmmm... weird things happening today. i guess today you can say that i read alot of things and people wrong. october still sucks but it's starting to get better already..

this day sucks, not because of being unlucky, but because this day is stupid. hmmm... yesterday was just plain unlucky, but why does today suck too.. the only good thing about today was my dream.. anyways, back to this day.. i added eien coz i still miss him. he was online when i added him for mafia wars but he didn't approve my invitation. i just don't get him. i just hope he was already offline that time. what made this day suck. well, i can't say this was the reason but i'll let you decide. we were playing volleyball as usual, and the ball went inside one of the houses. while we were waiting for the ball, i spy with my little eye someone who looked like aaron. it threw my game a bit but we still won. anyways, i can't be a hundred percent sure if it was him. i wish it was him and at the same time i wish it wasn't. grrr! it sucks whether it's him or even if it wasn't him coz it makes my mind go crazy. huhu. and eien has to top it all off. grrr. i would like to give eien a piece of my mind but i don't think it will affect him coz he's just an asshole when it comes to this things. huhu. but i sure do miss him. maybe i'll give it some time. who knows, maybe november would be better. i really hope so coz i just can't take it anymore.

i can't remember how the dream started.. all i remember is that i was lying beside one of my crushes from college, toshi, and we were both buck naked. i can't remember if we were naked already from the start. it's like someone was filming us while we were lying in bed.we were talking and i was trying to convince him to let me play with his dick. my face was very close to it and i think i could whiff the aroma of his nice body. lol! i really can't go into the details cozz i forgot most of it and it was really just about me coercing him to do it with me, or at least to let me play with his dick. the ending was just us laughing in bed naked. he had a very nice dick in my dream. haha.

i didn't want to wake up but i couldn't help it coz i really had to pee. grr! stupid bladder! lol!

why does it always elude me? i just don't seem to know how to really let go of anyone especially when they've already became a big part of it... well, it's applicable to almost everyone.. lol! i just don't know how to give up...

i want to be able to say that i've already given up on mc, eien and aaron. but, i don't think it's the whole truth.. i just don't get it.. grrr! although i think i'm nearly over eien and mc. the latest hang-over is the hardest.. i just never perfected the moving on thing. and i guess, the proof has already hit me on the face.. aaron. grrr! i didn't even have a chance to talk to him except on the phone wich was only hello coz he couldn't hear me from the noise.. just sucks! it's really harder for me, or probably impossible for me to move on if i can't talk to the person whom i'm moving on from.. that's basically just eien, though at some degree i think mc can also be included in the category. but i'm getting around it quite well.. i just hope i don't do anything rash... or at least if i do it to eien. i should do it while it's easy for me to track him down. grrr! just sucks. i really do hope i'd be able to move on from all this shit! coz i'm the only one doing all the shitty work in all this.

Call me a kid but I wasn't able to sleep properly as I was thinking of Kagrra,'s performance today.
:DDDDDD


Well, it's only about the band performing, but I was also concerned that my little brother will get to the PC first or my father going online too early, amongst other things. D:


I just so want to see them perform live again~ We don't see that often. God knows when was the last time they released a DVD for their tours. ( ￣っ￣) The latest that I was able to get was that digest for CORE, so I hope they would release a DVD for the Kiwami tour or Shin's koto concert, I dunno. Even a gag concert of the five would be a feat! XDDDD

Shin is starting to be "The koto player" now, ne? No more guitar man? LOOOL. ^^


I was checking at a post about the AUGA membership... roughly 4000 pesos when that Y6000 would be converted. It's easy to earn that money, my only problem is keeping them! I need to save 3000 php for a debt that's almost hitting anniversary, so after that I can really save up for the membership.

It's either that or Isshi's oni necklace that I would give as a gift to myself. (＾～＾)
But that's also around 4000 php....man. I need to get rich!


So maybe it's AUGA next year? Well, I don't want to promise even myself because I remember saying something similar to being a HERESY member. So orrrrmffffff, but.... がんばります!


AAAAAH~ it's a few minutes before the show!
Must finish breakfast soon!


WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~
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Ah! I'll be giving them peta first!
XDDD